I made a mistake
I own the mistake
I forgive my self
I move on
those are the things to remember when I relapse.
I recently have been heading for a relapse with my MBI (Munchausen By Internet). Something made me needy - i dont know what.
Kristy is my innerchild. I do not have DID. although theres a small part of me that wonders because Kristy used to feel so real to me…even though I knew it was a fantasy.
Something made me want Kristy back….and in my quest to figure out if I have DID, my Munchausens got triggered. I let kristy back out. Kristy made a friend. and then I heard my words on the documentary this morning…….. and I knew I had to stop.
This might be confusing - and I’m sorry for that. But I decided I had to write this if only for my self. To tell myself to knock it off. You dont need to be Kristy anymore.
The only time I’m allowed to be Kristy is if people know she is not real and that I am role playing. (if anyone wants to role play with me - that would be fun - but we have to know its NOT REAL).
I made a mistake, I am taking ownership of the mistake, I apologize for it. I forgive myself. I have a mental illness that I need to get back in control. something I can do. and I move on.