I am also working on a book about my life with mental illness. I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Munchausen Disorder. i am currently in therapy and see a psychiatrist for Prozac for depression and Trazadone for sleep issues.
This is : Simply - ME -
THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT! I SO APPRECIATE IT!!
It was tough.
On Tuesday we talked about sexual issues that have happened in the past. I was unable to go into very much detail. Amazingly, I was able to open up about it to a dear friend who gives me unconditional love. That brought everything to the surface and I couldnt cope.
I kept reaching out to my therapist but she wasnt answering my emails and i ended up cutting ( alittle bit). She finally saw my msgs and asked me to come in.
She said the main thing was to get me stabilized. She asked me if I was upset about what we had talked about the other day. I said yes. She said she would like to put the topic away for a little while to get me stabilized. She said I didnt have to talk about it today, or this week, or this month.
She asked me what i had done to try to distract myself. I told her one of my favorite things to do is look at the pictures of adoptable pets on craigslist. and we started talking about animals. She asked if my dog was a comfort. I said YES and my cat too……. but the whole time im thinking - this isnt working. The issue isnt going to go away. I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT.
It is like spilling your bowl of cereal … Just say it and let it go. Sometimes just helps the pain and feelings even just a bit
i know she meant well - but…….. really - if it were so easy…… good grief!
they just dont understand. they think its so easy to think happy thought, be positive and just - let it go. this is an illness. im not like your average person.
i dont even know what i said wrong
i dont understand why you follow me if you arent even going to comment, support or like anything i say.
i have all of about 3 people who really care
i realize this is probably borderline attitude - but what can i say, i have borderline
im needing a lot of support right now
i feel so alone
I think i will stop by the thrift store on the way home and buy a couple videos. go home to bed and watch them tonite and get in some rest and relaxation.
cant say the msg of support was all that comforting for what im going through. wise words to live by - but not much of a comfort.
Life is all about learning and growing.
It is not a competition or a race.
Try to find a lesson in all of your experiences and don’t judge yourself or others.